Yikes. It’s been exactly 5 months since I blogged. That is, if I managed to finish and upload this one.

What’s been happening since that last time:

My little brother got married. It was a wonderful wedding. And it was good to be around family once again.
A crazy way to end 2012; a problem that resurfaced and forced us to go back to year 2006, the living hell. And it’s still going. I don’t know how we’re going to go through this this time.
Hubby’s best friend got married, so another trip back to Surabaya.
We came to a decision on what to do with the new business place.
A visit from my brother and his wife. His pregnant wife 🙂
A trip to Gold Coast with the cousins. Loads of fun at the theme parks.
Have been busy in search for the right coffee beans and coffee machine for the new cafe.
Has started to play badminton with the Cell group friends. I want to be fit.
Feeling a bit deflated that everyone around me seems to be falling pregnant, and I’m not.

So in these five month time, I have gone through a rollercoaster of emotions. Happy, sad, anger, thrilled, amused, overwhelmed, almost gone crazy. In all that, I tried to learn to accept and understand. To understand that what I want is not always right, it’s not always the right timing, it’s not always the right reason. Tough. I learn to trust my Father, Whom has satisfied me with what I need. Who knows better not to always give me what I want, because He knows what’s best for me. To be thankful for the love He’s shown me throughout my days, through my family and friends. It is my decision whether I want to be happy or not, no matter how tough it may be.

There. I wrote it down. Musing is not that easy, either. But I guess this is how I learn to surrender, to accept the problems and make them real. And to face them, with His joy as my strength.

And I guess it’s time to wash up the bowl from the mouldy bubur pelangi.

Three months too late, but nevertheless, hello 2013. Please be kind.